The Past that Haunts me

There are things that happened in HS that still bother me today. I have come to realize that I have not completly forgiven them for what they did. I cant just say, "Lord, forgive them for they know not what they have done". I have a hard time forgving and forgetting what happened. It hurt me so much and I cant seem to let go and move on. I know I need time I only hope I will notbring others down with me. I want this tightening in my heart to go away. Everytime I pray about it the tears start to fall. I try to stop them and they keep faling faster and faster. I hate crying. To this day no one knows what really happend but me and the Lord. I cant explain this to anyone. The people who caused me pain and heartache probably do not remember what they did. Do I risk bringing it to their attention only to have them laugh and leave me feeling worse than before. I do not trust my voice when it comes to hard and sad things that hurt me deeply. I have a hard time expressing my anger in words without saying something I shouldnt. I cant be friends with them ever but I know I need to fogive. I do not want this to determine my future.