My desire for real friendships

My friend Chelsie told me once, "College is the place to find your bridesmaids". Not that I plan on getting married any time soon. She is so right. I want friends who will be with me thro thick and thin. I want friends who will love me like I do. I want friends who will be loyal and truthful. In HS I had "friends". They were not real but I pretended they were so that I had someone to be with on weekends. I did not like spending time with them. I knew they did not like me but I tried to get them to like me. FAIL. I realize now I can not make people like me. If people dont like me, its their loss. It is a waste of time and energy to try to make someone like me. I do not want this repeated in college. One of my biggest fears. So far I have had only one problem with a close friend. I do not want to lose anyone but at the same time I want all of us to be on the same page. If someone doesnt want to be my friend, I want them to tell me. No secrecy.