Bottling Things Up

In last night's episode of Supergirl, Winn's dad breaks out of jail in order to have him kill his enemy/former boss all because the man had stolen his toy designs. The reason that his dad was in jail in the first place was because he had sent a teddy bear with a bomb inside to his office. Unfortunately, instead of it reaching the boss, the assistant had opened the package which resulting in her death and five others. Now 15 years later, instead of admitting that it was his own fault that he was sent to jail, he blames the boss for missing out on his son's life. It wasn't the boss's fault that he missed out on being a father, it was his own fault unfortunately, he had failed to put things in proper perspective.

We as humans tend to blame everyone but the right person when we get into trouble. When a policeman arrests someone, very often the friends and family scream at the policeman saying something along the lines of, "Why are you doing this to my son!?" This the yelling should be turned towards the person who committed the crime, "What did you do to deserve this punishment?"

The topic I really want to discuss today is how we bottle things up. Winn, towards the end of the episode, says "I don't want to keep things bottled up because then I might explode." I paused for a second to reflect on my own life. How often did I keep things to myself instead of standing up? How many times have I wanted to tell someone how I really felt, but instead kept quiet out of fear? Winn kissed Kara because he has liked her for years but was afraid. He didn't want to do that anymore. Sadly, Kara and Winn's friendship is now in jeopardy unless both of them acknowledge their feelings and move forward together. I would hate to see them "break up" and not be friends anymore.

Growing up, I bottled things up a lot. There were people I wanted to punch in the face, but didn't have the courage. There were times when I wanted to cry, but pushed it down. Granted, I'd probably would have gotten suspended a lot if I had given in to most of my feelings back then. At the same time, maybe it wouldn't have taken me so long to let go of the anger I had towards some individuals who bullied me.

In conclusion, my take away from this episode is to face my fears as well as let others know how I feel about what they've said or done to me sooner rather than later. I've slowly gotten better at it, though it still scares the heck out of me every time; however I'm not giving up.