Wednesday, March 31, 2010

The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head up high

There's always gonna to be another mountain
I'm always gonna to want to make it move
Always gonna to be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna to have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But, no I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's aways gonna to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna to be an uphill battle
Somebody's  gonna to have to lose

Aint about how fast I get there
Aint about what's waiting on the other side
It't the climb

There's always gonna to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Alway gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna to have to lose

Aint about how fast I get there
Aint about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep the faith

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NG2zyeVRcbs


I love this song so much. I listen to it all the time. This song speaks a truth we all should learn. No matter how hard the climb is or how many times we lose, we should always keep the faith. Do not worry about what is on the other side. Worry about the climb :) My challenge for you.

Writing

The things that I love about writing:
I can write about the people that mean something to me and usually I get to see their reactions.
The people I write about that have passed, I can look back at the written piece and remember happy memories
I love to write fiction most of all. Making stuff up is my specialty
I can get away from reality and create my own version of reality
With fiction, the sky is the limit. I can make it look real or fake it as much as I please
Writing give me the freedom I feel when I'm flying :)

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Racism is a deadly disease

I just had to read an essay for my Personal Essay class. It was titled "Dragon Slayer". The entire essay was written around the idea that African Americans are heroes. In a way we are. 60 years ago we could not go to a pretigeous college such as Ithaca College where I am now. I have been blessed that I can come here to pursure my dream of beoming a New York Times Bestselling Writer. My dad went to UCONN to become a pharmatist. Growing up he and his parents and little sister lived in an apartment in Englewood, NJ. He went to an all black school till he was in 3rd grade when they started to integrate schools in NJ. People did not like it. There were shootings and riots all the time. He was not allowed to go outside after dusk and there were certain parts of town where he was not welcomed. It was a scary time. Soon his family was able to own a house. This was an amazing accomplishment. After my dad graduated from UCONN, he lived in Hartford working for Rite Aid pharmacy. Now he works for Arrow Perscription Center. While living in Hartford he saved enough money to buy a house in Windsor where we live now. He worked long and hard to provide for his future family. He once tod me that he wanted his family to have more than he had. He wanted us to have our own house, a big backyard and live in a safe neighborhood. This ment alot to him. In a way, my dad is an inspiration to me. He knew what he wanted and went after it with all his heart. God has provided for us in every way known.

Friday, March 26, 2010

What I am thankful for

Seth Nenstiel wrote a blog about what he's thankful for so I'm going to do the same.

In my Personal Essay writing class, my professor wants us to write about something in our lives that invloves conflicts, tragety and inner battles. I do not have much of this in my life. Many people in my class have relatives that get drunk often, they live with only one parent or if they do live with both they fight all the time, or they have siblings that try to kill themselves. I do not have any of that. The worst fight that my parents and I have had was during HS. I did not want to continue at the HS I was at and I wanted to go back to public school. Our fights never invlove throwing hard objects and they rarely lead to screaming. I feel like my life is perfect. I have two parents that love each other, my sister and I. And of course our dog Buddy. We love him dearly. My parents provided us with a house in a safe neighborhood. One that is within a couple miles of downtown Hartford. Both my parents went to college and have a Bachelor's degree. My dad has a steady job as a pharmasist. We dont do drugs, smoke or have guns. My parents have supported my dreams when I wanted to be a pilot. They also support me now as a writer. They want me to succeed. I want to succeed. I really am a spolied girl. I never understood why my mom would never let me wear a shirt that stated this truth tho :) My ultimate dream is to live in LA and write for Hollywood or Sony. I want Corbin Bleu to play the lead star in a movie based on one of my books. Wouldn't that be something?

Favorite quotes

"Evaporate tall person"
"She floats easily under adult radar because she seems sweet"
"What's impossible? I didn't think IMPOSSIBLE  was in your vocabulary"
"Meeting with the smartest kids in school is a great way to get caught up"
"He was quite hansome, at least from the opposite side of the street on a foggy day"
"Do you want something to drink?" "No, I'm too young" "Apple juice, boy!"
"You are so dedicated...just like me!"
"Compared to her, they were like...well, waffles with frezzer burn"
"If the egg fits, lay it!"
"When nature calls, you have to answer the door" - White Ghetto
"She gets winded sharpening a pencil"
"She shops for shoes like the First Lady would shop for the Inaguaral Ball gown"
"You're a shining lighthouse in the Bay of Stupicity"
"You're a Nork - an annoying hybrid of a nerd and a dork"
"She is slim depending on the angle"
"She was the sort of girl who probaby swapped toys for boys when she hit eleven"
"Why you walkin' like you got a diaper rash?"
HAHAHA love these :)

High School

UGH High School. A friend once told me that HS teaches you how to servive. I think she is so right. HS was about cliques, fitting in or not, and gossip. I was never into those things. I had my own group. I went to a private school during HS and I hated it. Unfortunatly, some of the kids were a bit racist. I tried to fit in when I got there but soon realized that if people do not accept you for who you are then they are not worthy of your time or friendship. I'm glad I learned that lesson in HS.

Life

If there is one thing in life I would love to have is a life without mistakes and cowardice. Sometimes I wish  could re do some parts of my life. Other times I wish I could just have the courage to do the things I want to do or want to say.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

I love not doing anything and still being tired. I will never understand the human body!

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

BOYS

Don't you hate that love sick feeling? No matter what you do, you see his face. During the day and in your dreams. You just can not shake that feeling. This is how I feel right now.
I also have three guy best friends that are amazing. I don't want them to think I like them. How do I let them know that I want to be their best friend not their girlfriend? I love being with them, hangin out, talking, making fun of them, telling them jokes and just beinging with them. They make me happy and we have so much fun together. I don't want to give that up.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Friends

My roomate is soooo silly. I have two friends next door that are so crazy. I love them all even when they act like crack heads and I am forced to give the "Ruth stare" that they love so much.

Facial Hair

I do not think I will ever like a guy with facial hair. I know I know my dad has a mustache but ive never known him with out one n besides hes like 50 somethin. Hes allowed. A 20 year old on the other hand......shouldnt be happening!!! The only thing I think of when a guy starts growing facial hair is, "What would it feel like to kiss him?" I know Im pathetic. But its all I think about when I see a guy a cute guy with facial hair. My mom says it took her awhile to get used to my dad's mustache. I do not think I could date or marry a guy with facial hair. NO NO It should be sweet not weird. I swear Im going to cringe if a guy with facial hair starts leaning in to me.

Dating

Is dating your best friend really a good idea? I have become quite close to many guys here at IC and I feel like if we become any closer its going to get awkward. I do not want to lose them as friends. Do I want to kiss my bes friend? So weird to even think about.

Friends

Friends come and go I know. I hate that. I did not have that many close friends in HS but the ones I had I want to keep in touch with. It is really difficult though. Most of the friends I had in HS were younger than me so it is easy to keep in touch with them. I am so glad i live in the 21st century with twitter and facebook. Without those I would never know what is happening out side of snowy Ithaca.
Dont get me wrong, I love all the new friends I have made at IC, I just wish I could keep both set of friends but sadly I am losing my HS friends. The ones I count on these days are Laura B, Kym and Susana. The rest are now gone. Though I do have my little people like Ashley, Karina, Eliza, Erica, Allison, Erin and Tailor. They never cease to make me laugh.
I hope the good friends that I have made here I will see after college. I will never forget them.

My five rules for my future bfs

1) NO SEX WHATSOEVER
2) Dont kiss my hand....I HATE THAT
3) Two places you are never allowed to touch me. (Chest and below the waist)
4) I want you to respect me and I will respect you. I want to trust you and I want you to trust me
5) Im not a romantic so do not buy me flowers it wont help

See..im easy as pie

Monday, March 1, 2010

Writing

I absolutly love to write. One of my all time favorite past times. I like to write fiction because I can make up stuff and be imaginative as I can be. The sky is the limit in fiction. No one can say its fake because its fiction. Personally personal essays should not be published for the public to read. That is why it is called "Personal Essay". It is personal. I do not relish in telling random people my life story or what a certain person in my life means to me. Fiction is just so much easier to write too. I write about people I know or I just make up characters. I use their characteristcs and give them different names and put them in a different setting. It is so much fun to be able to control what your characters do. Watching other people read my works is fun as well. Their facial expressions are hilarious to watch.