Tuesday, October 10, 2017

A Word about The Good Doctor

Tonight, I watched the first episode of The Good Doctor and I have to say, I'm in love! Never have I seen a show about someone with a disability and it's POSITIVE! This is exactly what we need! So many tears flooded my eyes while watching this and I hope it only gets better.

For those who don't know, this show is about a young surgical resident who has autism. He is brilliant beyond measure and I love that they explain what going on in his head through pictures. It's fascinating. While I still have no desire to work in a hospital or have anything to do with practicing medicine, I love this show.

There were two scenes that jumped out at me. One of them was in the boardroom when the president of the hospital spoke about why he wanted to hire this young man, Shaun. The next scene I liked also takes place in the boardroom towards the end of the episode where Shaun gets a chance to speak. In both, I thought I was going to cry.

Too many people in this world are like the surgeon who told Shaun, "You don't belong here." Too many people act like those who are different, those with disabilities don't belong. I'm tired of it! We all have aspirations, gifts, desires and we should be allowed to pursue our dreams! No one should tell another person, "They don't belong." No.

Shaun belongs in surgery. I belong as a writer. We all belong somewhere. I encourage everyone to find out where that is :)

Monday, March 13, 2017

What is Right?

Recently, I've been having multiple conversations on what is right in God's eyes verses the world. A couple nights ago, I was watching the new show Chicago Justice and in this particular episode Stone, a prosecutor, tells Hank Voight, the Commanding Officer of the team in Intelligence, "Having a right and doing what's right are completely two different things."

This hit home for me for many reasons. In the world we live in today, many people have a twisted view on what's right. Many feel that "what's right" should be or could be different for everyone and that there's no absolute truth. Just because we have a right to do whatever it is that makes ourselves happy, doesn't mean it's right to do. As Americans we have many rights, but we have to be careful not to abuse them.

The reason why Stone says this is because Voight wanted to testify giving his side of the story. However, Stone knows it's a complete lie and doesn't want to put him on the stand. Sure, it's Voight's right to testify if he wants, but is it the right thing to do in this case? No, it's not.

Sometimes we have to ask ourselves the hard questions like, "Will this hurt someone else? Could my reputation be ruined if someone finds out the truth?" We have to be responsible human beings and think beyond ourselves. If we don't, we could get ourselves or others into trouble.

Think before you exercise a right is all I ask.

Saturday, January 28, 2017

Keep Going

Last week's episode of NCIS hit me right in the feels. Not many shows/movies make me cry in a good way. I have to say that this one, Keep Going, really got me thinking about my failures, the way I look at myself as well as the ups and downs I've been through in life.

Ryan, a son of a Naval Captain, stands on a ledge ready to jump when Mr. Palmer, the M.E. Assistant runs up to stop him without thinking twice about his own safety. He doesn't tell his team what he sees, just runs up to the top floor of the building and grabs Ryan by the belt. The young boy tries several times to get Mr. Palmer to let go but he refuses. My heart practically stopped several times. Just seeing the firemen, police and ambulances through their eyes was horrifying. (I don't often admit I'm deathly scared of heights).

While trying to talk Ryan out of jumping, the conversation made me think about what I went through several times over the last ten years. There have been plenty of times when I compared myself to social media. Mr. Palmer was right when he said that people only show their highlights. They don't show their bad days. So many times I've scrolled through Instagram and seen people's vacations and pictures with friends when I didn't have any. For so long, I had no highlights I wanted to share.

Another phrase that stuck with me, Ducky said, "If you're going through hell, keep going." Life isn't a bed of roses all the time. Not for the President, not for my parents, not for my friends -- certainly not for me. We should "opt for happiness," as Mr. Palmer mentioned to Ryan. I want to be happy. Do you? Sure, there are times when life gets us down but that shouldn't t be a reason to give up. I've wanted several times, believe me, but I've come to realize that when a door closes another one opens. A great number of doors have closed just in the past two years and I still refuse to give up on my dreams. Mr. Palmer never gave up on his. He wanted to become a doctor and he did! He failed the test twice, but he succeeded on his third try.

I'm still shaking my head in disbelief that Mr. Palmer saved Ryan's life. I have no idea if I would ever have the guts to go out on a ledge twelve stories high. That night, I think both of them learned something. I know I did.

Life is precious, don't waste it. Strive to be the best person you can be. If you want good friends, first be a good friend. Love is shown all sorts of ways -- just might not be what we expect. Blaming yourself for everything that goes bad only creates loneliness. Last but not least, don't quit. :)

Saturday, December 3, 2016

The Right Thing Isn't Always Easy

If doing the right thing was easy, we'd all be doing it everyday. However, because it isn't, very often we'd rather not and choose to do the thing that's wrong because it's easier.

You all know already that I love to talk about TV shows that teach something. One of them is Blue Bloods, and while I'm not a Catholic I do agree with many topics of conversation that happen around the Reagan family dinner table or side discussions. Last night's episode was a rerun, but I still managed to take away something.

"It's hard to know what to do when you're not sure what the right thing is." When the PC, Frank Reagan, said this to his daughter, Erin, they both knew what the right thing was. The truth of the statement remains the same; doing the right thing is hard and in the situation with Erin, she could lose her job. I don't want to spoil the ending for those who don't watch this show but might watch it later, so all I will say is that she did what was right despite her opposition.

In my life now, I face the question, what is the right thing to do? My heart is in so much pain and I don't want it to cloud my judgement. Forming relationships of any kind have been tough since the beginning especially lasting ones. I know I'm different. I know I'm sensitive, but I also know that I care a lot. Sometimes that seems to mean that it's inevitable that I will get hurt. Humans disappoint and I have to remind myself of that daily as well as not to expect so much. In my mind, I have a vision of what a good friendship looks like. While everyone has a different perspective on what love is or what respect is, I can't devalue my values simply because few people understand or respect my views.

Another awesome quote (from Instagram, not a TV show), "You don't gotta drop it low if you raise your standards." How true is that!? I shouldn't have to disregard my values simply because the person I want to have a friendship or relationship with doesn't agree.

My sister and I don't see eye to eye anymore and that doesn't mean I should let go of my beliefs. Just means I can't expect the same relationship we had growing up. We need to find common ground elsewhere. When that will happen, I have no idea. How to go about forging a new relationship with her, I have no idea. What the right thing is to do concerning my sister, I have no idea. I do know that no matter how many fights we have or tears we shed, we are still sisters. It will take time to figure out what the right thing is, but that shouldn't stop us from trying.

Tuesday, November 15, 2016

Be You

Funny, how movies I've seen a bunch of times still manages to teach me something new. Mom's Night Out is a crazy fun movie to watch full of laughs but when Bones, a stranger turned friend of Allyson's says something profound, it really makes one stop and think. Have any of you felt like everything you did wasn't enough? Have you felt worthless to your friends, family and maybe even to God? Since I've moved, I've felt that way hundreds of times. I try so hard to make friends and so many toss me to the curb or treat me with disrespect. Sometimes I feel like giving up and just trying a new city altogether, but then I meet new people and my heart feels light again.

Bones, not a man of God, said this..."He loves you, Charles. No matter who you are or what you do or how far you run. Jesus will always be loving you with his arms open wide just for being you."

It's crazy how often we think we have to earn His love or be someone we're not in order for others to like us. He created us as individuals and He does NOT make mistakes. He could have made us all robots but He didn't....for a reason. We each bring something unique into this world, our families and friends.

Being me took so long to come out, but when I do share my stories and be myself, I've found that some will accept and some will reject. Very often those who reject you isn't a reflection of how awful of a person you are but rather a reflection of how immature they are or unwilling to see your point of view. If you are true to yourself, respectful towards others I can't believe you'll never find people who will love you for who you are. God certainly will never stop loving you, we can always count on that.

God made each animal differently too, an eagle for example, cares for its young like its supposed to. It's a beautiful thing because its doing exactly what God wants.

We beat ourselves up trying to be someone/something else. STOP! PLEASE! Be you! Be the person God made you to be and you will be much happier. :)